May 27,2011
This Morning as I sit here thinking about my sweet Anya (Emily), I am praying she will be happy and have every opportunity in life she would have had in the USA. I want her to be happy. And if the Lord wants her to be with her natural family then I have to accept that. But I keep singing over and over in my head and out loud: "I lift my eyes unto the hills where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, maker of heaven and earth." I am crying out to him to do what is right for all the girls here. I want to do his will but my heart still says Anya is mine. I just do not understand why he would have me fall head over heals in love with this precious child only to take her away. Maybe one day I will know and understand. For now I am trying to get a grip on things and focus on what lies ahead today. I am trusting him and believing him for this, though I am still heartbroken. I will accept what happens today and I will still love my 2 daughters with all my heart. Anya will always be a part of me no matter what happens today. So Lord I am calling on you for help today. Help us to accept what you have planned for us and give us a peace and let us know that all of our girls are getting what is best for them. I know my help comes from you so please help us today.
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Jackie, I'm praying for you and your husband. I'm sorry your hurting, but oh so grateful you know the Comforter who will be your HELP in troubled times.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your heartbreak. Who can understand the ways of God? All I know is that He is completely faithful...I pray that you will have peace in the midst of your very real grieving. I am praying for Peace and wisdom. Love from colorado! xo
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